Just Around The Bend...

How exciting when we can feel God's glorious plan for our lives getting ready to unfold! Do you know that feeling? That feeling of restlessness. That feeling that you know your prayers are really being heard. That feeling that something incredible is about to happen: a prayer is about to be answered. A door is about to be opened. Your life is about to change.

As exciting as this experience can be, sometimes it can be a rather terrifying endeavor as well. Often times God sets up a course of events in our lives to unravel in such a way that we get slighty "freaked out" because we have absolutely no control over what is happening to us. The spiritual side of us knows that this is God, because we can see that change is coming: that God's plan is again pushing us forward into an uncomfortable spot. That being a veritable "limbo", in which we wait for the "glorious" part to happen. In the meantime, we wait with bated breath, wondering what's just around the bend. Honestly, this is a very tough spot to be in, because all we want to do is take control of the situation, make the decision ourselves, and "hope" for the best. But our best is actually to wait on GOD! The greater part of me knows (whether or not I show it at the time) that God is using this time of "limbo" to draw me near to Him. It's unfortunate that we have to be taught the same lesson over and over again, but for many of us, this is one lesson we will continue learning until the day our time on this earth has passed.

This time around for me, I really don't feel: helpless. Like I just told a friend of mine, it's "wierdly exciting". There's something around the bend that is going to answer a lot of the questions that I've had for years and years. I feel quite strongly in my spirit, actually, that the uncertainty that has plagued me for so long, that this veil that I've lived my life behind is going to suddenly be lifted, and clarity will be coming at me like a Mack truck: and I am so excited. I'm excited for the questions to be over. I'm excited to know what I'll be doing with my life with a certainty that I've never had before. I'm even more excited that I'll know for sure that this is God's plan for me: that's the best part of all. Don't get me wrong: I've felt helpless over this very issue countless times before. I've been frustrated. I've been hopeless.

However, through a series of events that have just recently taken place, I'm discovering hope.

"The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;

your love, O LORD, endures forever-

do not abandon the works of your hands."

- Psalm 138:8

I just came across this verse last night, and what joy it gave me! It was as if I was recieving an affirmation that there is a silver lining in my dark cloud which is going to eventually burst forth, forcing that cloud to part in either direction: my wait might finally be over!

And who can forget the incredible promise that God gave us in

Jeremiah 29:11?

"'For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD,

'plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future'."

I love that we can put all of our hope in God in everything we do! Praise God that we have the ability to wash our hands of the worries, the uncertainties of life that plague us daily! And while of course it's easier to get excited about these facts while one is on the verge of a major breakthrough with God, just remember: that's why we're here! To encourage each other, and to lift one another up. We are all always going to be in different seasons in our lives, and it's the job of those experiencing joyous seasons to encourage and lift up those who may be experiencing a time of "winter" in thier lives.

As I've been writing today's entry, Third Day's "Your Love Oh Lord" has been playing in my head on repeat. Not quite sure why, but nonetheless, I felt compelled to share the lyrics with you.

"Your love, oh Lord

Reaches to the heavens

Your faithfulness stretches to the sky

Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains

Your justice flows like the ocean's tide

I will lift my voice

To worship You, my King

I will find my strength

In the shadow of your wings"

I think that says it all, don't you?

If you would, friends, please just pray for me that God would continue to enlighten me: that He will continue to plant within me the strong desires of His heart for my life, open the doors of opportunity in my life, and lead me in the direction He wants me to go. Your prayers, as well as your friendship are greatly appreciated.

Have a blessed day everyone!